PATTY

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what happened recently.

- ONE. i lost my bloody phone. ok. more like my mum's. or more like i didnt lose it. SOMEONE STOLE IT. whichever bloody mother fucker. (sorry for the extreme @$%^ here) but for those who really know me, nothing's new. was at mos. place was really packed that night. and WA LAAA. phone's gone gone gone. feel's like someone close to me passed away man. :((

- TWO. im deferring my studies. so whoever happens to come across my blog, now you know. changing my major to photography. AND PLEASE. dont come asking me why.. when.. what.. where.. who.. MANY and i really mean many people have already asked all that. so im really tired of explaining to everyone. so please be kind would u? thanks. :D

- THREE. im still smoking, drinking, clubbing. OH MY WORD. but anyhow. i know this sounds like bullshit. but I HOPE i wont b clubbing this coming weekend.

- FOUR. im starting to get addicted and all 'OOOOH AHHHH' about korean dramas. i like mature shows like opray and ellen now. but am still hooked onto animations like family guy and american dad. they sound like your average family cartoons. but please. dont let your children watch it. its all about the s*x babbyy. or. most of them are. sexayy.

- FIVE. im digging new genres of music. DRUMandBASS. HOUSE. TRANCE. BREAKBEATS. TRIBAL HOUSE. oooooh. whichever has the beats. i go BOOM BOOM BOOM. :D

- SIX. i was at a scene when 2 ah lians or more like 4 ah lians (inclu one trying to stop the fight) fought. read. CAT FIGHT MAN. hand beating. hair pulling. screaming. happened at obar. and just when i needed to pee so badly, this had to happen. so me being dumb and all. i tried to stop them. and end up getting elbowed on my cheekbone. u bitches. GO FIGHT SOMEWHERE ELSE! DONT GET IN THE WAY OF PEOPLE WHO NEED TO PEE. thank you. cb. :

home club. thurs.

3/4 aug. home club! wheeee. anaiz was spinning that night. jacque and i dropped by. elaine. john. and some other ppl i didn know was there. oh. raihan was there with jacque and i. (: so... some tequila shots was on the lady - jacque. yay. there's the loveeee. had beer. fr 7 eleven. HAHAHA!
jacque and rai did something really funny and odd. they exchanged what they wore on their feet that night. jacque to wear his socks. black and long... with high cuts converse. u know.. what japanese girls like to do. the socks pulled till below their knees? HAHAHA. and rai... to wear her slippers. and fold his pants to 3/4s. HAAHAHHAA. sexy lar ppl.
oh oh. jacque got me some gifts. PRETTYYY MAN. a lovely bag with golden sequins and 3 pairs of earrings! like OMG. :)) made me happy right away. home was really quiet that night. just a group of us.. and some other frens. so.. jacque got pretty high. after the drinks and all. so we danced danced and danced. ONLY the 2 of us. HAHAHAHAHA.
what i like abt home club? the dancing. the sofas. the music. and oh. the friends i made from there. ((:

ladies' night.

ooooh. 2/3th aug. my first ladies' night after all that clubbing. wheee. well it was more of a favour i did for a dear fren of mine. -fiza. :] alan invited her to club that that night (wed) and she wld have felt so left out if she were to go alone with him and his frens. so here i am. MEL TO THE RESCUE. hahaha. apparently i had to lie to my dad again for the late night out. abt some scanner that broke down in sch and i had to go fiza's place to do my work. sorry papa. dont mean it man. : and yea. fiza and i met alan and company and coco latte at about 10 ish. read : BORING. it was so freaking quiet. even though the music was pretty good. some girls were like in some sexy kinky sleeping gowns. and one was even seen with like half of her g-string showing. i mean. hey. u might as well take off that boy shorts and show off that butt lar. ok nvm. so fiza and i decided to chill downstairs where there wasnt much ppl but yet music was being played there too. OH OH. i love the song ' your body' by pretty ricky. fiza and i named it the good song for s*x. HAHAHA. what the hell i know. anyway. we took a few photos. cam whore as usual. but the pictures turned out quite retarded lar. cuz i was kinda off after like half a jug of burban coke. hurrr. ok ok.
after awhile we ended up at zouk. the dudes wanted to do some club-hopping. omg. u wldn believe this but it was FULL HOUSE at zouk, phuture. like wth! it was only like 12ish? the dudes suggested going in by velvet. but fiza and i r like legal but not legal for velvet. HAAA. ok... so the plan had to change. the dudes had to leave the girls (us) outside velvet. cuz they were of legal age to get in. and we cldn. well alan and company dun feel bad yea. i know u guys r sorry but hey.. no one's to blame for the full house at zouk. :) so no worries. oh ya. happy belated bdae alan! all the aug babies. HAAA. better b sure to turn up for my bdae at mos ok!
talking about mos, yea.. fiza and i decided to go there. cuz i guess it was ladies night so it wasn much harm done going there. it felt kinda weird at first cuz its like the first time im clubbing with ONE person ONLY. hoho. yea.. we got there to the RnB room. and as usual the dance floor was packed. we decided to get some drinks first cuz apparently the burban coke kinda worn off. and erm i guess its no fun to dance when ure really sober? haha. whatever i know. so over at the bar, some black dude came to us 'hey.. i'll get u some tequila shots if u drink it with me' and we were like 'hmmm.. ok!' hahaha! he's some dude from california. eric. big. tall. but overall nice. we thought he wanted more than just us having to drink with him... but he was actually a really sweet guy! after drinking the shots, he just told us to have fun and he went off with i think 2 jugs of burban coke. haaa. after that jug of burban coke at coco latte, and that 2 shots, we had another erm.. i had gin tonic. and fiza.. vodka lime. and later some dude or more like a man. probably some 30 odd man who came down to mos after his work. i think he kinda saw me getting high and all after the drinks and he said hi.. so i just smiled back lar. even though he's kinda old and all. so we danced and danced and danced. omg. i dunno why. but all the weird guys happen to b near fiza and i. probably around 5 man. its so freaking scary. and one dude whom i thought was kinda cute, was the weirdest! its like when a girl kinda hints to you that she wanna dance with u, will u just look at her and look dumb? ok seriously.. he's .. urgh. i think maybe he's just gay man. )*&#)@&$ hahaha.
so after a long dance i wanted to get another gin tonic. so back to the bar again. and who knows.. the 30 odd man was like behind me! he's scary man. i think he was stalking me! HAHAHA. kidding. he said hi again.. but this time he was like ' hey can i get to know you? ' so me being kinda high and all.. 'hello! im mel.. you are?'
ok wait. i forgot his name. but im sure it starts with an 'e'. but later he kept asking me for my name again so i was like 'mel.. short for melissa? m-e-l-i-s-s-a.? '
but he gave me the look like he hasnt heard of the name 'melissa' before. LIKE HELLO... 'melissa' is like one of the most common names u can ever find! whats wrong with you! ok... and then... HE STARTED TO LIKE TOUCH MY HAND! AND CARESSED IT! shit seriously.. i think i attract the older guys. im tramatized. hahaha. so i actually gulped down my drink as quick as possible. to get away from the old guy? like GULP GULP GULP. he wanted to actually buy me another drink. but erm i think i had enough for that night. : so i was like ' hey.. we are going off to the dance floor.'
he : ' can i join u guys?' so i had to give the 'rescue me' the look to fiza. 'erm fiza.. u mind if he join us?' so fiza being so smart and all.. she said ' i wanna go to the toilet'
so we said we were going to the washroom. but HAHA. it was actually just an excuse to get away from him. i know its so mean. but he was caressing my hand! :\ oh man.. fiza i love u more for that! :)) kiss kiss.
ok so back to the dance floor again. it may only b like the 2 of us, but i actually had fun man.. wheee. oh. we bumped into siti (zoorah). danced a lil bit more. and hurrr. its so funny but we came to find out the closing song was like linking park and jay z's NUMB. *&@*)&$* cant stand that song really. so yea. mos was closing and we had to go. oh man.. seriously.. pls pls pls. make it the day for my bdae on 4th aug for the weird ppl to b at some other clubs and not mos. HAAA. i think i had enough got that night man. and oh. i came to realized something. like... when im more covered up in terms of clothing wise, i actually have more guys offering to buy drinks for me. but not when it comes to guys wanting to dance with me. and if im LESS covered up, i have no one to buy drinks for me! but ok lar.. i still am able to dance with some dudes. ((: haaa.
i cant wait for this fri man. wheeee. haa. sorry if this entry is like boring and all. hooo. :)

night out at bus stop :((

saturday.220706. fiza. sleepover. 10hrs of sleep. HOHO. chicken soup. ginko nuts. rice. sambal lemon juice. sardine. 1130pm. 106. far east 54. damn it. a bit early for 1130pm to b the last bus?! ck tang's bus stop. KHAI. ex colleague. :)) talk talk talk. NR8. liang court. homeclub. elaine! john. azly! anaiz. farah. joel! ((: she. wasted. raihan. farhan ( i think). raihan. shoes. jacque's sandals. pretty shoes on pretty boy. HAHAHA. raihan : your name starts with a 'j' and yours starts with a 'c'. ok sorry im half drunk too."
raihan. my name starts with a M. M. M. what 'c' man. alamak. he. my clutch.
out home. 430 odd? walk. walk. despo guy(s): hello... want me to send u guys back? '
hello my foot. go away. liang court. posb. ice milo. LAST BUS. I REPEAT. LAST BUS IS 445AM. stuck at bus stop. 445am-630am. weirdo. dude. bus stop. be-spectacled. second cup. ice milo. :)) jacque.phonecall. cleaner. bustop. sleeping. 630am bus.54. far east. AGAIN. wisma. 650am. bus. 106. mum's place. 710am. mum mumbles. :) love u mummy.

boring.

friday 210706. school. mum's. fiza. long walk. coco latte. dub. kenneth. chad. naz. up. rnb.
guy : " hey u girls alone?" HAHAHA. cliche. something new. pls. toilet outings. fiza. booty shaking. READ : in toilet. :)) boring boring rnb music.
down. chills. gin tonic. 2 glasses. :( out. chad's place. pretty pretty set in room. :D cam whore. chills. john. confession dude. out. kenneth's. john ZZZZ. fiza HUNGRY. 99.5 fm. stripping game. STUPID STUPID. kenneth : lousy banker. TSK. earrings. belts. top. skirt. socks. auntiefied rubberband. me. ultimate loser. blankie. THANK GOD. durian cake. packet drink.
8ish am mum's home. ****
no more stupid games for me.

lots of *** talking. HAHAHA.

saturday. 150706. work work work. jacque. mos. fiza. homeclub. thai / korean dudes. woohoo. netty. :] drumandbass. gin tonic. :l dancing in your own world. ungku. camera. UGLY PICTURES LAR. sofa sleeping. jacque. fiza. kenneth. naiz. john. (u know eugene! omg). jia. james. hadi. ue square. charlie. dog. bed lying. playpen. girl cuddling. truth or dare in the dark. stupid stupid. kiss. fiza. kiss. me. kiss. HAHAHAHA. john. confession. pinch. nipples. NOT. thanks ****. HAHAHA. lots of *** questions. ya ya ya. kenneth. bleeding finger. omg u have alot of blood. slping but not. john. crawling. floor. hurhur.
7am home. daddy screams.
:l

mos fiza's bdae

friday.140706.ministry of sound. house. rnb. RETRO. mr chandran. ciggs.tequila shots. eeew. burn my tummy burn it. lots of sweating. birthday girl : fiza. pauline. debbie. sherrie. clay. win. terence. alan. many many other ppl. high. unstability. guy stalker. guy with nice hands. ((: guy.bite.ears.neck. cute. nice hands again. :))
india foreign dude. URGH. GROSS PLS. podium. hip hop dude. two trans shaking bootys. LIKE OMG. dude who got drunk. toilet trips. cam whoring again and again. linkin park. like huh? 6am macdonald. pavement. fiza. adrian. ok im done.

lovely lovely

wed 050706. hair. hairclip. vintage. basketball. pavement. smokes. smile. guitar. singing voice.

ive wasted my tears on you.

i just dun get it. maybe it was fucking dumb of me from the start. u always tell me one thing but do another. it doesn help that u even forget the 6th mth anni. and whats the reason? that u woke up late and that u were watching soccer thats y. THANKS ALOT. im so tired of everything. im tired of gettin excited and waiting for u to come over all the time. and im tired of waiting up for u till 7 in the morning but end up wasting my time cuz usually u never turn up. it was naive of me to pretend u were the perfect one. it was stupid of me to think that u'll always b there and u truthfully loved me and that u'll never keep anything from me. welcome to reality. i chose to ignore the fact that u lied to me abt some stuff cuz i thought as long the trust is there everything will b fine. but i was so damn wrong. the problems we had, u never seem to wanna solve it. instead u ran away from it. what kind of a man are you. u never seem to tell me stuff. the truth abt everything. it feels like all these while, the 7 mths were just a story. it feels like i dun even really know u at all from the start. ive wasted my tears on you. ive wasted my kisses on you. thanks alot. lovers we'll never b again.